Ouch.. :(

Thanks so much Viv. I had a TON of fun!! :)

” WHO I AM MAKES A DIFFERENCE “

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“It’s not how much you have that makes people look up to you, it’s who you are.”

- Elvis Presley

Do Not Stand At My Grave and Weep
by Mary Elizabeth Frye

Do not stand at my grave and weep; 
I am not there. I do not sleep. 
I am a thousand winds that blow. 
I am the diamond glints on snow. 
I am the sunlight on ripened grain. 
I am the gentle autumn rain. 
When you awaken in the morning’s hush 
I am the swift uplifting rush 
Of quiet birds in circled flight. 
I am the soft stars that shine at night. 
Do not stand at my grave and cry; 
I am not there. I did not die.

“Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.” – Philip K. Dick

While chatting with a good friend of mine the other day, she shared some really great/interesting/dark/witty quotes with me. I loved them so much, I thought I would share them with all of you!!

“Look long enough into the abyss, the abyss looks into you.”
- Nietchze

“The coroner will find ink in my veins and blood on my typewriter keys.”
- C. Astrid Weber

“…the ones for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue center light pop and everyone goes ‘Awww!’”
- Jack Kerouac

“There is a glimmer of eternity about our lives. In the vastness of time and space, our lives are indeed small and ephemeral, yet not utterly insignificant. Our lives do matter. Because we are the kinds of creatures who make music and create art, we are not merely disconnected fragments of the universe but at some level reflect the beauty and splendor of the whole. And because all life shares in One Spirit, we can recognize this indwelling beauty in all other creatures.”
- Gary A. Kowalski

“Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life.” – Mary Oliver

“The universe shivers with wonder in the depths of the human.” – Brian Swimme

“Imagination is more important than knowledge.” – Einstein

I recently received an e-mail about this new web site and thought it looked interesting. It is an online support group for people suffering from bulimia. Having suffered from eating problems myself, I know how difficult it is to live with and how once you have it, the mentality always seems to be there. It is really great that there are support groups out there for people with these types of problems. I really wish I would have known about some of these things when mine was really bad. If you suffer from this illness or know someone who does, please refer them to this site. It is brand new and still getting started but seems promising.

Here is the link: http://www.mdjunction.com/bulimia-nervosa

 

If anyone does go to it, please let me know what you think and if it benefits you at all. It would be great to let others know whether you would recommend it or not as well. 

My kitty attacked me. :’[

Everything is so crazy. I feel as if I am standing still in the center of a large fish bowl and everyone if running around me. Other times, it seems like everything is in slow motion. During the slow times everything takes so much effort and energy. All I want to do is stay in bed and sleep – preferably with banadryl. Then during the fast times, it’s like I’m screaming on the inside but unable to say anything on the outside. I just want all of this to go away. For good.

I have finally decided that I am going to lose weight. I’m not entirely sure how much just yet but I am thinking somewhere between 10 and 15 pounds. Tonight I googled “obese” images and it was so disturbing that I finally have the motivation I needed to once again make the decision to just do it! I am pretty excited and hope it works. 

I am going to have to somehow keep this from my shrink though… not sure how that’s going to work out. Wish me luck!