Today’ll be the first day back after spring break. I wish I could just pull a Bueller and stay home …   but I can’t. **sigh** Ohh well. It should be good right?? I don’t think there’s any homework due (except that history worksheet I didn’t do but will do in class) which is good. And I get to get away from the parent’s for six hours, which is always good.

Well, I hope everyone has a good day! 

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I have finally made a decision. I will wait for him for one week. One week. That’s all. If he doesn’t call, text, or e-mail me by the time that one week is over, then I am moving on. I have already talked to this other guy who wants to take me to dinner and the movies and I have told him this and he said that he will ask me again next weekend. I guess this is good right?? I mean, waiting one week isn’t pathetic is it? I can see longer than one week being a little sad… but not just one.

So this morning I talked to an old friend and I guess my boyfriend is going through a lot more than he lets on. He really just wanted to keep me out of a lot of stuff to protect me and my feelings (or that is what I am choosing to believe) and he just needs to learn that he can’t do that. He is not superman. People need other people to help them and to talk to about things. I mean seriously, if you can’t tell your girlfriend things then who can you talk to??

 She also told me that he has depression issues and generally pushes the people who love him most away when he is going through rough times. He has never done this to me before so I guess this means he really cares?? Or maybe I am just in denial and can’t let go of him and really need to. I don’t know what to think right now. If I don’t hear from him within a few days then I suppose I will have no choice but to move on. Just not yet.

 It’s not as if I have no other options. I have been asked out more times since I’ve been with him than any other time in my life. I just want him. 

So that whole long distance relationship was going pretty well for a while. Now all of a sudden he doesn’t call me anymore and when I call him (if he answers) he’ll talk to me for about ten minutes and then say that he has to go and will call me back later, which he never does. He is pissing me off! Then this morning he is all cranky and makes it sound like we are over but then he just sounds emo so I’m not sure what I’m supposed to think. This other guy asked me out and I was going to say “yes” but then my “boyfriend” made it seem like we are still together… so confusing!! If anyone has any advice on what to do please let me know. If he hasn’t already broken up with me I think I may end it… this would be so much easier if I hated him. -.- 

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There’s a one armed man sitting up in a tree. How do you make him get out?

 

- You wave at him.

You know how when people cut themselves they are called cutters? Well, what is it called when someone gives themselves bruises? I don’t mean like a little bruise. I mean like a big, six inch bruise on their forearm.  

Wow it’s been a long time since I’ve written anything. Well here’s an update on the long distance relationship thing:

Me and him have been going out for about a month now. It’s going good though the other day I received my phone bill and almost had a heart attack. That is to be expected though so I can’t complain. He has been away in another country for the last two weeks and I have only been able to talk to him once or twice. **tear**

Oh, and my friend that I talked about in January is doing well. She has a boyfriend who could be better, but at least she isn’t sneaking off to be with someone that no one knows and doing God knows what.

Hmm … don’t really know what else to say. Anyone seen any good movies lately?